April 26, 2011.

Nangyari ang mga ito kahapon. Mga memorable events lang na hindi ko talaga pwedeng ipublish sa real world and ilalagay ko dito.

Sa Mcdo.

May sinabi sa akin ang kaibigan ko tungkol sa kanya. Ako naman, eto. Naguguluhan na naman. Noong isang gabi lang nung nagdadrama ako tapos... ene be yen? Sana lang kasi, magbigay siya ng clear answer.

M: Ok na yan kasi wala na talaga..

Ako: Kanino ang wala na?

M: Sa kanya (sabay turo doon sa tao).

Alam mo anong nakakatawa? Eh yung pabulong nga kami nagsalita, tinuro naman niya. At ang masaklap na nakakatawa? Katabi lang talaga niya yung taong yun. Feeling ko narinig niya. Kita sa mukha niya eh. Pero dinedma niya lang.

Ito ang kauna-unahang beses na nagsindi ako ng kandila kasama ang mga kaibigan. Siyempre, nakakatuwang isipin na andiyan siya. Tapos magkatabi kaming umupo. Alam mo yun. Masaya ang feeling. PERO.. hindi rin umaalis sa isip ko na sinusubukan niyang lumayo. Parang ayaw niyang tumabi sa akin. Tssss.

Ah! meron pa.. bakit bigla yata siyang naging gentleman ngayon? Hmmmmmm... Bakit kayaaaaaaaaaaaaa? Masaya kasi madami kaming napag-usapan..

Siguro.. isa siya sa mga rason kung bakit ako masaya dito sa trip. Akalain mo, umabot siya ng gabi. Ang proud ko. Nakakatuwa naman yung parang napaparanoid na siya kasi ang layo pa ng pupuntahan niya tapos gabi na. Pero hindi pa rin umuuwi. First time kasi eh.. na nakasama ko siya ng ganun. Noon, magkasama nga kami, hindi naman nakapag-usap hanggang sa uuwi na lang siya. Basta yuuuuuuuuuuuuun! Happpppppppppy.

Meron pala yun.. habang nakaupo kami

G: Ano ka man.. para maging close tayo ulit.

J: Hala. Eeh. Eh. (insert name ko here) oh.

Ako: O__O *bakit mo sinasabi yan sa akin?*

Trivia: may past kasi sila. :))

Nung isang gabi lang kasi... naiiinis ako.. parang nag-aact siya na wala siyang alam sa nararamdaman ko. Na parang balewala lang.. Ngayon.. alam pala niya. Kaya okaaaaaaaaay!

At siyempre... kasama ko rin yung mga taong.. mahalaga sa akin ngayon kaya masaya. :)) At itong araw, dito ko naramdaman na pag wala ka ng expectations, mas nagiging masaya ka sa mga nangyayari.

March 29-30, 2011

I don't know when this all started. The bond, friendship and tandem, how did all these happen? Oftentimes, I would ask myself if I really belong to this group. If the circle of friend I am always with is worth saving. My mind is jumbling right now so I can only give the details in bullets.

March 29, 2011 (Night)

• Alyssa and Mika - suntukan
• 2nd's call
• Dinner
• First game/event: Make-up. LOLS. Make-up gurus: Jill, Mik, Pau, Lyss. Victims: Bai, Tel, Dan, Kae. Assistants: Art, Glin, Camz, Jamie. It was really funny.
• ROFL because of Jamie
• Chikka
• Second game/event: Manicure. Now, my fingernails are like fruit salad.
• Third game/event: Auction. I was able to buy lots of stuffs. The fun part? Underwear. :3
• Movie marathon: Shutter and A Crazy Little Thing Called Love.
• Out of My League
• Sleep. zzzZZZZ

March 30, 2011

• Breakfast
• Capture! Hot issue
• Movie: 500 days of Summer
• Lunch
• House
• School
• Bitter and Cold.
• @Tel's: Mango, Bread and some random TV shows
• @Camille's: Dinner
• Home.

On our ride going home, the music playing on the radio was depressing. We talked about stuffs that could happen to us in the future, about the Facebook, albums and pictures. One of us will be saying bye-bye to us tomorrow. It just sank in to me that some things will change from now on. People will be leaving. I will miss them. :(

I never expected that the overnight will be such fun. I mean, the organizer really did organize everything well. I really had fun. Lol. The food was a plus. :">

August 26, 2010

I've not the urge to write anything that happened before this and after my last post. I could barely remember whatever happen then. I'm really tired. These days were just composed of practices.

But today, I must blog. We went to school with civilian. Some of us played while some made requirements. I really wanted to sleep and I didn't have the urge to give it my all during practices. There were a few changes made.

We ate lunch. By 11+, we changed our clothes and started painting our bodies. We had our last practice at school. Then off we went to Claret. One thing I had to point out is their canteen. The things sold there are cheap comparing it to the food sold in our school. Plus, they are delicious and healthy. Ugh. Oh, I also saw someone very familiar today. I think she was my teacher during pre-school. I know she also remembered me when she saw me.

I am happy that we won the Sabayan Bigkasan. Though there were only two contestants, we are proud that all our efforts were paid off. First place is still first place. :)

Then we went bowling. I wasn't in the condition to go because I was really tired. But I think it's also worth it. I had fun with the karaoke session. It was really crazy... and stupid. hahaha! We were going all wild without thinking of the people around us.

After an hour or so, we went back to school. We had fun singing in the bus. We were so loud the whole time singing whatever songs that come into our minds. It was really fun.. :))

Again, we sat at 'OTnB.' We cam-whored and played a bit. Had a little talk and fun then went home. :)))))

- August 26, 2010, Thursday
08:56 PM

August 22, 2010

It's a Sunday, a supposedly rest day, yet I don't seem to feel it. It's killing us!

I went to school around 7AM. We were to go at Abong-Abong Park to film for our Filipino project. My head was aching and I felt hazy the whole time.

I never thought that aside from taking away my weekend, I would lose something so valuable to me. Something I needed and has a sentimental value to me. It hurts me so bad.. I feel so empty right now. Like, it's really unfair. You didn't give me a time to retrieve what is mine. Maybe that wasn't really for me. Maybe and I hope, something better would come.

After that, we went to Ecozone for a bit. We had joyride but I wasn't enjoying. My head hurts and it still wouldn't sink in to me what I had lost.

R.I.P Samsung Corby, yellow. I will forever remember you. You know what I had gone through to have you and now that we've come to part, remember that I had been very happy all the time we spent together. :> Thank you. But I would be pleased if you'd come back to me. Please do.

- August 22, 2010, Sunday
09:13 PM

I want you back..

Time.. it's the most powerful thing. It's scary -you can't control time and the worst you can never turn it back.

You wish you had done this instead of that. You kept thinking that what if you'd decided not to go and stayed at home? What if you left it at home? What if you've seen it? WHAT IF! Whatever your answer is, it's never gonna make sense. And everything, just everything is meaningless -the shrills of laughter, the tears of joy and the fulfillment of pleasure. .

To lose a thing that you've greatly desired for so long and finally, finally it's yours. Then in a flash of seconds, things happen, you lose grab hold of it and then with a flick of hair, and blink of an eye, it's gone. Vanished. And there's nothing you can do. Nothing. It's unfair for the one left behind. It hurts. Oh, the nightmare.

August 21, 2010

I woke up early today and I was damn tired already. I went to school and supported my classmates for the basketball game. It was epic and I was proud of the class though we didn't win, it was the highest score we've got for basketball. 5 for boys and 13 for girls. Way to go!

After that, we went to C's house to have our lunch. Ugh. Then went back to school to practice the Sabayang Bigkasan. It was fulfilling since we're done. Polishing is all we need now. I'm really happy. I hope we'd win. We can do this. We're all in this together.

Then we had few talks. And went home. :)

- August 21, 2010, Saturday
10:44 PM

August 20, 2010

Ayaw ko na talagang mag-isip. Ang dami dami dami dami daming pumapasok sa aking isipan. Mga regrets at hinanaing. Hindi ko na kasi maintindihan ang nararamdaman ko. Nakakalurkey na!

Wala namang masyadong nangyari sa umaga. Napakanormal nito at walang pwedeng masabi. Sa hapon ay nanood kami ng play. Walang hiya!

Hindi ko alam kung gusto mo ba talagang mapansin kita o ano. Ayaw ko na nga talagang mag-isip. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat kong maramdaman. Matutuwa ba ako o maiinis. Hindi ko naman idedeny, kasi wala na akong magawa. Ito na talaga yung nararamdaman ko eh. Ang cute mo. Sobra. Na-inlove naman ako ulit. Grabe, iba talaga yung feeling nung nakita kita. Lumapit ka pa ba, nakakainis! Nagulat ako at patungkol sa adlib mo, WTF! Hindi ko inexpect. I mean, anduon ka na eh, nasa taas. Pero nagawa mo yun. Masaya naman ako. Medyo. Well, normal lang.

Hindi ko na alam kasi ang cute at galing din n SF. Nung magkatabi kayo, gulong gulo na ang mundo. Hindi ko na alam. Oh My.. Ayaw ko na nito. Naiinis na talaga ako ng bonggang bongga. Nakakalito, nakakahilo. Ish!

- August 20,2010, Firday
10:17 PM